Do you ever feel terrified to try?
I'm at this place again. Old, familiar thoughts invade my head. These are thoughts I once believed, but I pushed past them, telling them they are meaningless. Suddenly, like an army of locusts, they are swarming around me, their loud buzzing is enough to make me want to climb into my bed and hide under the covers.
Where does fear begin? I teach voice lessons, and often, my students tell me of the voices in their past who told them to stop singing. I admire them as they push past those voices and tell their old ghosts where they can go. The student becomes the teacher.
I had a dream once, that I was in a building about as tall as an indoor stadium. I was up on the very highest floor, looking down at the bottom floor which appeared to be hundreds of feet below me. I knew I needed to find a way down, but there were no stairs, no elevators. Suddenly, my son walked off the edge, and I was terrified that he was going to die. But instead of falling, I was amazed as he simply stepped onto the ground. That's when I realized that I had been deceived by an optical illusion. The floor was painted in such a way that it made it look far below me. I wasn't really high off the bottom floor at all. I was just one step up.
Fear is like that optical illusion in my dream. It can be very convincing. In my dream, I was convinced that I was stuck up on the top floor, with no way down. I was convinced that if I took a step off the edge I would die. I was convinced for a split second, that my son would die.
I have a few mantras I love when faced with fear. Three favorites: "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge" Our Maker is the only one worthy of our fear. But nothing and nobody else has the right to cause me to be afraid. "Do not be afraid, do not be terrified. The Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." If He is with me, who can be against me? "Perfect love casts out fear" Our Maker loves us with a love so powerful and so light that fear and darkness cannot stand in HIs presence.
What about you? Are you ever afraid to try? What are your powerful ways to push past the monsters who try to scare you?
My dear friends, let's keep believing, keep the faith! Keep jumping! Keep taking the next step! Keep TRYING!
xoxo Kim K.